The Two Week Wait: The Torture of the High Stakes Unknown

When you start trying to have a baby you learn about the two week wait.  This is the 14 days between ovulation and when your next cycle should begin.  After the two week wait, is also a great time to take your first home pregnancy test. Although you can get positive pregnancy tests before the two week wait is over.  I have seen people get them as early as 8 days past ovulation.  Waiting for the positive pregnancy test is a time period ladies trying to conceive learn is a difficult anxiety ridden struggle.

For this FET, it is an 8 day wait from the transfer of my 5 day embryo. That is when I go back to the doctor for a blood test. But, I always use home pregnancy tests (HPTs) because when the transfer works the tests will show up as positive well before the 8 day wait.  And I like the comfort of knowing as soon as I can.

 These are my pregnancy tests from when I learned I was pregnant with Sebastian.  I took this photo today - yes I still have them!

These are my pregnancy tests from when I learned I was pregnant with Sebastian.  I took this photo today - yes I still have them!

For every one of my FETs, where I got pregnant, I was able to see a very light line on an HPT by 5 days past transfer. That's today and my tests are stark white...  I may be hallucinating a light shadow of a line on one of the HPTs but most the time even that one is looking pretty stark white.  So, I am starting to freak.  

My brain has been all over the place today.  The pressure is thick and soupy; the anxiety is something from which I have detached.   There have been many times today that I couldn't get my mind off the possibility that this may not work.  I am trying to keep the hope and it really is too soon to tell.  Tomorrow will give me a better idea. But, I should really see something by then.  Or I am going to have a hard time keeping my calm. Praying for a BFP tomorrow morning...

 My stark white tests from this morning.  Praying for a line tomorrow.

My stark white tests from this morning.  Praying for a line tomorrow.